the monotony of work / life is smothering, yet so endearing in a way that its never going to change. either for you or for the world. people change, everything does. maybe that's why this monotony is so alluring as it is smothering. much like the chick you thought you saw at the club only to find out that you are just so wrong the morning after.

as dr house said in ep 501, almost dying changes nothing, dying changes everything. how very true.