tired,
is all i can say and feel.
liberation,
is what i see yet not feel.

nirvana, i always seek,
nirvana, is what i shall never attain.

the fulility of life, the never ending cycles,
has taken its toll on me.

what good is a life plainly lived?

what good is this life?
if you can't see its silver linings.
if all you can see is doom and gloom,
what good is this life?

routines i cant escape from,
happiness i cant get enuff of,
habits i cant run away from,
joy i always long for.
this is the life i crave for.

is life about waiting or making things happen?
should living my life be sretching myself to the maximum?
is life about having the best and the most?
isnt life about finding happiness?
is life all about knocking down what u have build and then starting all over again?


life is such a mystery and with lots of unanswered questions.

innocence begets experience.
cruelty begets kindness.

how far would u agree with those 2 sentences.

for me, i would more or less agree with those 2 as its most probably wat i would see myself in most of the time.

to answer cruelty with kindness, that would be the highest level of tolerance that anyone can go, and i certainly wanna attain that level. i have seen it happen quite a few times so far. although there is always the doubt that there is more then it meets the eye, happenings behind the scenes and such, there seems to be little motivation behind certain acts except pure kindness. pure kindness of the heart in reaction to unjustified cruelty dealt out to the same giver of kindness.

i can see that i am just beginning to understand this world that i live in all over again and i hope i enjoy the ride.

Magical
i have always wanted to do a marathon at least once in this lifetime (along with lots of other things) and the feeling of getting it done finally this year seems to bring with it an unexplainable buzz that is uplifting and magical.

my life's actually pretty much ok by and large. have slowly settled into the working patterns and although it means giving up some sunday soccer and mid week drink binge, i am glad it turned out the way it turned out.

finally gotten a digital camera that i can carry around (or at least i try to) and so its me picking up photography all over again. its been so long since i tried taking some decent photographs. expect to see some pictures soon.

might be changing the layout of this blog soon enough as its getting stale IMO.

Must make a mental note to take gooooooooood care of myself, to keep myself in a pristine state, mind and body. I am sure, the banks will be glad to hear that. :P

life is just like the football in a football game, u have no direction on where it will go and its more or less dependant on external forces. given a certain set of situations, the reactions are more or less the same, leading to the same consequences.

'shit happens' this is very apt phrase to describe my outlook on life nowadays, shit happens everywhere anytime in almost every other shapes ans sizes. frankly, i am tired of 'shit happens' at work. in life. on me.

so, u all can safely deduce that i am in fact a very 'shitty' person. hahahhahahhahaa

quiet desparation, have you had your dose today?

Memories form a huge part of our lifes. Memories can be collective shared and individually treasured. What if, someone comes along and snatches your memories, good and bad, away from you for good?

Would Life be better? As you forget all the hurtful and sad things that was in the past or would Life just be the same old mundane routine that we all face everyday?

The answer to the question would be simple. Regardless of life being better or worse for one with memories, one thing is certain, life will not be good for those close to the person.

How would a son feel if his own mother can't recognise himself as his son? How would a wife feel when the man who shares her bed for over half of her lifetime can't seem to call out her name 1st thing she see him?

By now, maybe some of you might have guessed what am I describing here. Some might not, but its ok.

Alzheimer's Diseases robs countless people of their previous memories, depriving them of the essence of this life on earth and causing untold amounts of grief to the kin of sufferers. Yet, there is not much awareness given to Alzheimer's, as compared to other diseases like liver failure, AIDS, and malnutrition.

As the world's ageing population continues to grow, Alzheimer's will surely be on the rise as it occurs mostly within the elderly group. We should pour some the senseless funds used on warfare to research and try to find a cure for this crippling disease.