the noose is tightening around the neck. as sure as day, as steady it can be. bit by bit, moment after moment, the noose slowly grips the neck. as the clock counts down, and the inevitable nears. hands will sweat, legs will collaspe, all in resistance to the unavoidable. futility never looked so sweet.

i guess, of those that gotten outta fox river, the character i like the most wld be, T-Bags, the child-killer. he just almost always have the best lines in the show, isnt it?

utd wasted a chance to put more points between themselves and chelsea over the weekend. all is not lost yet, cos i believe that this year's title race WILL not be such an non-event like last year. so maybe goal difference might come into the picture.

life has been slowly but surely picking up speed this few days in every aspect. just dunno when it will end with a well-deserved break.

the marathon is next next week. am i ready for it? i would say yes. am i looking forward to it? maybe not so...well. maybe not totally not lookin forward to it but maybe the enthu level have dropped a notch.

jz's mom passed on, and other then inducing me to think how my world will collaspe without my mom, there was this interesting qn that popped up when we were catching up while waiting for the kueh ji and jz da man to come over to talk to us. will talk abt the qn in depth some other time.

saw some old sec skool frens at the funeral too, realised that jz n i do really go back a long way altho we arent tt close as u wld assume with a frenship tt long. maybe we dun really fit in with each other.

toking abt fitting in, it seems kinda difficult to fit in , at least for me, in new places, situations, people and even with things.... but i do my best hahaha.

all in all, life goes on and i am still in the process of catching up with it. like it or not, we are not going to win the race with life, as a whole.

那是醉生夢死　才能熬成的苦
愛如潮水　我忘了我是誰　至少還有你哭

have had an enjoyable birthday this past week. just wanna say a word of thanks to those that took the effort to remember my birthday and the special one who managed to spend time with me despite her busy schedule.

Thanks, dearie.

菊花殘 滿地傷
妳的笑容已泛黃
花落人斷腸
我心事 靜靜躺

early morning sun on my back.
with heart heavy and steps leaden.
i moved my sorry ass down the steps.
steps deep into hell unknown.

wat have i gotten myself into?
into the unknown i venture,
is no new venture
is this wat i sought
for after all,
all i know is i dunno.

the strength to go on is absent,
the will to stay is non-existent,
may some1 pity me and show me the path,
to nirvana gained.

simple things, i like alot.
yet, its always more than meets the eye.
a simple aye n nay, ripples thru time like
no other.

bad verse is heinous crime, and i am guilty of it all.
i rest my case. for now.

hmm...brand new week...at least from my perspective..but impt thing is, i am clean for 1 week le! its a start, a modest start, and i will take strength from this modest beginning and strive on! ha!

man utd won, liverpool won, west ham won, SPURS WON! hahahaha! UTD's top of the table again! (these past few weeks dun really count as its only GD) woohooo! who cares about cophengan now? haha.

gotten myself a new handphone. gotten a lobang for full season of prison break. life is good....life is so damn good that i hope murphy dun come and find me with his law. :P

yupz, work has started to peak again..shit...watever happened to the supposed year end lull?? shucks...

in a way its good, kips me on the straight and narrow...be the boring idiot tt i am. thus no more clubbing, drinking, sc2000, sc3000 etc etc.

to top it all off...told me self to keep off alcohol this week. been clean since mon! haha. 4 more days to go....somehow something tells me the remaining 4 days will be the hardest of it all to pass. Oh, ticket outta Alcohol Anonymous, quik come to me now.

well...start of Nov means year-end, festivities, and all what not is all coming in... been a big year for me. felt my mental age went up a few years.. but physical age...well..maybe more then the proportionate amount. lolz.