so as expected, the guy din recover from the fall... he died. its george best i am talking abt. had lotsa things to blog abt just now, but now sitting in front of the screen...everything just floats into some obsecure reccesses of my messed up, screwed up brain...

will be away for the next 2-3 weeks...just to get some time off all these madness.. a time to reflect and to consolidate and hope i dun encounter even more madness there...

rooney, to me at least, epitomes something that can be both DESTRUCTIVE and BEAUTIFUL at the same time. rooney at full flow, is pure poetry in motion... yet, wind him up a little, all the shit will start flowing too. all the ugly words and actions....just so different from the former rooney that i described...so, yeah, the burning qn here now would be......how come something can be so so so beautiful and yet can have such destructive powers giving rise to conseqences so ugly, its unfathomable....

and yeahhh.....i still cant bring myself to watch SAW 2, wanna try forcing me to go watch it? hahhaahaha

ohh....have been wanting to mention this for the longest time, arguing and flaming each other online, is just like competing in the Special Olympics, in the end, both of us are still RETARDS.... so, yeah, just wanted to make that point crystal clear to that someone out there...

aye aye, back here again with a post, a nonsensical post....

i just lurveeee to see someone fall, fall really hard, those type of fall that most people make it their last.

why this perverse fetish with seeing another one biting the dust? , you ask.

cos, i derive even greater pleasure from seeing that same person rising from the ashes, rising to greater heights, and in the process shutting all the obituary writers predicting his demise.

i haf always strive to choose to be subtle rather then 'in yer face'.

its just not my style. and of cos, i ain't gonna please the whole wide world with my own kind of subtlity. hints, and only hints i will drop to convey my meaning. my deepest, true-est meaning.

i am just a bit off the mainstream in terms of thinking, but i make the effort, and mind you its quite an effort, to conform to the mainstream way of thinking. cos, i haf known for the longest time, there can be no fighting the system. the only way could be taking youself outta the system, a system in which i haf grew accustomed to the little convenences that it brings, ie, handphones, email, cars etc etc.

someone once told me this, and i quote, verbatim to how i remember it. 'i already know how i am going to die, lung cancer, liver cancer, cardiac arrest and most probably i will die young, so why not, live it up now?'

yeah, i wanna live it up now, right here, right now, no hestitation, no delays, no regards for the consequences, no facing the music. this dream will, and always remain a dream, for i know, and we all know, there is such a thing like cause and effect. and its results can be very real. very very biting and brutal.

too much to cram, too little time, yet it must be done, yet i am bored, a lack of motivation maybe?

Calm in this Age of Rage : Clueless in this Information Explosion

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Birthdate: November 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head. You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking. People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right. You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself. Your strength: Your original approach to thinking Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others Your power color: Pale blue Your power symbol: Wavy line Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You're A Passed Out Drunk

Drinking gives you that warm fuzzy feeling, until you're thrown in the back of a police car...

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

You Should Learn Portuguese

Muito legal! For you, learning a language is all about the lifestyle that comes with it. And Brazilian beaches, hotties, parties, and soccer matches are just your style.

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kaemon Watanabe

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The General Wolf Your Superpower is Cybernetics Your Weakness is Peanut Butter Sticking to the Roof of Your Mouth Your Weapon is Your Gas Bullets Your Mode of Transportation is Boat

What's your Superhero Name?

these few days, have been feeling restless, feeling the wanderlust bug's bite and its getting itchier by the day. just got the urge to just uproot and go some other foreign place and live a new way of life.

a new way of life, just what i think the doctor will prescribe. its just getting boring and just too routine for me. guess this will have to wait till time allows me to tweak the surrounding circumstances to suit my preference.

been spinning THE november chopin ever so often these days. nothing too out of the ordinary from him this time around maybe except for the album title, sounds a tad too classical for his type of music. but still like what he manages to manufacture this time around, still like his slower songs as compared to him rapping all around the shop inaudibly. tracks tt i wld recommend would be tracks 1,3,4,8 and 10. track 10, a duet with Lara, sounds nice. i have no idea who is Lara, but bearing in mind Jay's track record of duet-mates, she must be a busty sweet young thing. haha. 12 songs this time around, with the bonus 2 from initial d movie. and of cos, he snagged the golden horse for best newcomer for all his troubles in initial d. getting a golden horse for his type of acting seems to be either a lowering of standards or a send up of this whole JAY CHOU Brand.

maybe maybe, just maybe, he gotten the award out of default. after all, look at the other nominees in the same category, they are just.....crap.

the new zouk threw open its gates sometime back. din managed to make a trip down till the P Hols week some time back. everything has changed. phuture too. well well, change is inevitable but somehow, i think their business might just drop, as it now caters much more to the clubber that knows their music well as opposed to the casual clubbers. then again, maybe not, after all, the crowd pulling power is still there..

times are achanging, chugging along the tracks of time, pulling us all along with it, whether u like it anot.


为何牵挂未来愁，不如畅饮千杯醉。

as i near my 23rd birthday, some thoughts floated through my mind. some good, some bad, some incomprehensible, some totally weird and off the mark.

it got me wondering. me being me, has come close to wasting dear mother earth's resources for 23 years. is there anything, anything that vaguely resemebles an achievement to convince the man upstairs that i am worth keeping on this earth? if there ever was one achievement, against what will it be measured to? me thinks, life is inantely unfair. yet in its own quirky way, gives you more than ample compensation for all the unfairness 'suffered'. some sorta one window closes, one door opens kinda thing. only that its not that straight forward.

i like to see myself as an either or kinda person. half measures and grey areas would never do for me, at least most of the time. now, from the way i see it, that was bullshit. so nah, now gonna embrace the grey side with open arms, to make up for lost time. haha. ambiguity rocks!