today is a tuesday. i really like tuesday alot. used to, still am loving it. beats any other day hands down for fave day of the week. I really love tuesdays.

lets run through the nicks i have on my msn list, and my thots on it:-

There is NOTHING either GOOD or BAD but THINKING makes IT so...我终于懂了。。。爱一个人的感情如果可以控制的话，我想世界上的伤心会少一些。。。I guess its all in the MIND

hmmm, a very thought provoking one, this one. personally, even if a bad thing happened, there is always ways to look at it in a positive light and vice versa. pretty much agree with it for the 1st part. as for the 2nd part, kinda of a contradiction isnt it? from the bottom of my heart, i can neither agree nor disagree. must be one of those things that is capable of being swept into the crevice between black and white....


没有了你，世界突然变得黯淡无光。我就犹如行尸走肉一般，在这个冰冷的世界毫无目的地徘徊。你就是我生命里的一丝曙光，照亮我的心，带个我希望和快乐。~I married liao...........in my dream, lolz~我 爱 任家萱！~~

this obviously a SHE supporter, particularly selina. i really cant fathom why she is deemed desirable. WHY? anyways, this fren of mine took up singing lessons just to follow in the footsteps of his idol. immediate reaction was WTF?? on second thots, i guess its his way of following his dreams. he definitely would regret it if he didnt give it at least a go when time is still at his side. its those kinda personal bravery that one doesnt see quite often in real life. for this, he really really deserves my admiration for this. for sure, i myself would have reservations about following my dreams. oh ya, i dream of world domination ala hitler. wahahahaha. just joking.

Feeling deeply, is synoymous withbeing alive.

this is kinda true but y feeling deeply? there surely is other indication of being alive and well. pain being one. why feel deeply? doesnt feeling deeply kinda like put u in a vunerable position? anyways, in this society of ours, feeling doesnt get thigns done nor does it put 3 square meals on the table. why the lingering fascination with feelings then? is it overhyped? over-romanticise? or is it something that is desirable yet so unattainable? well, if this fren of mine had anything to say abt it, it could be all socially constructed madness and feelings and rationality have their own functions in the social setting. kinda explains it all, ya?

devil

haha, my dalliances with the devil can be at least termed as intoxicating. both metaphorically and literally.

oh my goodness...amt of readings piling up...

i totally agree with you. period.

this about sums up the nicks i have on my list. nth much to comment on.

realised thru trial and error that people sometimes do have a impression of me that is worlds apart from the one that i have of myself. or at least the one that i think myself should be fitted to. this misconception of me isnt down to any fault of anyone at all. just that i find myself to be quite pessimistic and too cynical, skeptical for my own good. sometimes, with the bo-chup-ness thrown in, it makes for potent meltdowns. yet, people can describe me as cheerful, optimistic, happy-go-lucky. do they have a serious misconception of me? others find me chatty, affable, yet i am extremely comfortable with doing my own stuff and being quiet. like i say before, if there is anyone else willing to liven up the atmosphere, i would be more then happy to follow the lead. i just hate awkward silence, no matter where when and what.

it so happen that males and females have different definitions of pretty and cute. this i find to my own detriment recently. the recent IT song...at least amongst my circle is 童话.. most of my female friends were gushing about how nice it is, nice this nice that.. but i dun find it to be exceptional at least not deserving of such hype. a couple of guys friends then pointed out to the same bunch of gals, that we definitely find twins 'cuter and chio-er' then cyndi wang,whom we judge to be ACBC. the gals' replies, as expected was that they find twins 'irksome and fake' while cyndi tho not really pretty but at least far better then twins...WTF.

i missed the final episode of the show tt i was hooked on..goddamit. couldnt see the happy ending and all. but credit where credit is due, such propaganda is getting more and more effective..must be the recovering economy i guess. or is it, my circle of friends are approaching the so called 'marriageable age bracket' ?? quite a number of people that would have panned such shows(at least in my opinion) have found the show to be entertaining and well not bad generally. do all of us have expiry dates? will i be branded a chauvinist if i say that i agree with the notion that women in general have expiry dates? sumiko tan of ST fame agrees with this notion too. 30 is the magic number here for woman. seriously, i cant fathom why woman, especially modern day singaporean woman who routinely have man for breakfast, lunch and dinner at work would be cornered into such severe self conciousness over something as trivial a number on their IC... is it considered as the new symbol of success? having a life partner? or is marriage just a tool to legitimise a baby..something to shut up nosey relatives and parents? so wat if a woman is so called left on the shelf? i am sure, they dun nid a husband as a meal ticket, neither do they nid a husband to provide genetic material, theres always adoption. To get into marriage just to have a baby, IMHO, is the worst reason to get married. and if having a baby isnt the pressing reason? why the so called expiry date?

this must be one of those days manz. bumper crop of entries. actually, nth much to update cos, if u r anywhere close to me and i dun mean purely just distance. most probably u would know whats happening to me and/or what shit am i up to. I dun like saying the same things twice but u can try me. i have no problems with that cos we live in a free world.

lessons or rather i would put it as one of those moments that you gained some insight to this thing called life.

-we are mostly inter-linked.
-good things often need to wait for a loooooooooooooooong lllloooooooonnngggg time.
-dun ever be fickle minded.
-lastly,stik with yer decision once u have make it. fuck the consequences. it will sort itself out eventually.
-be alert and be flexible.
-nth is ever either or.
-last but not least, BE YOURSELF.even if it means being a loser and a nice guy. Nothing beats that.

Did the Singapore Duathlon last Sunday, NO, i din run and cycle, i did the relay with JW. He did all the running of 15km. aches all gone already. 1st adventure race as a participant so din not really know how to dress up for it. WILL dress better next time. wanted to train abit for it but due to time constraints and travelling back and fro sch is FUCKING tiring. so.....took the racer out for a spin cum supper on thurs..tts all about it.

official timing is 1h30m for the 40km bike split. quite slow IMHO cos I only cycled. It was god damn monotonous as it was 8 rounds Marina South. I basically had to run songs to myself in my head to keep myself awake and the fuckingest thing is there is only one song on loop for a good half of the split..blardy hell, its painful to the max...fyi, the song was 回到過去...damnit! Bestest thing is however, i returned Lup his racer in 1 piece..tt was at the back of my mind all the way....dun buang his bike, dun buang his bike.. so was rather careful all the way...din draft or nudge AT ALL. I was Courtesy personified.

Am i getting hooked on such things? well...i guess i rather be hooked on mahjong. it makes dollars and cents.

Gotten to know some mahjong kakis...and....some drinking buddies....some study mates....cycling enthusiants...kickabout kakis....its a small world after all. Life is sometimes fucked up and full of shit, but relax, kick your shoes aside, we will all survive. Some way or the other. count your daily small blessings.....and while at that be impartial and count some of life's daily little annonyances. :P

is hooked to the channel 8 show at 9...been watching it whenever i can and i can say i caught 80 percent of it till now....thots about the show and its themes aplenty but guess its more apropriate to talk about such stuff over a couple of 鸳鸯 hor? haha. yeah, i mean it. say friday nite?

anyways, all those life's insights above is all....derived from...MJ. make yer own conclusions. dun read too much into it anyways, its not worth it.

watched SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS THE MOVIE. I RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE.

why?

COS A PERSON WHO DUN REALLY LIKE MOVIES HAVE WATCHED IT!

TO quote squarepants...

'I'M ready, promotion. I'M ready, depression.'

I promise some thots of mine when i next blog.stay tuned.

Lucky! Lucky!
I think I must be really lucky to have survived the 13th. :D

40 KM in 1H29M on bike. All thanks to Lup's racer, wouldn't have imagined competing on my own bike.

Now am enjoying the aches and pains. Lucky me. ;)

In what would be the toughest year yet for yours truly, the supply of luck is at an all time low.

So its time to revert to tradition of reaping what you sow. no longer can there be minimum effort, maximum result for this man here. Simply because life just don't cut it this way.

Shall I compare thee to a stormy day?
Thou art more chilling and more tempestuous

indeed, it is 2005..

PS, on a less depressing mood, changed the song and the crawling text, do let me know if u exprience any techincal difficulties with it. haa. go dl realplayer if you haven.

the oscars have come and gone. the victors basking in all the limelight while the losers go away silently into the night. the victors continue to work the hollywood party circuit, living the high life, while the rest goes back to the daily grind of producing better movies in the hopes of snaring a statuette next term.

let's talk about the winners, shall we? best supporting actress, cate blanchett. no arguments here. she was the one to beat, she was the competition. best actress, hilllary swank again. the reason being? beats me too. annette bening missed out again, to swank again. benning definitely has a bigger acting range then ms swank. from a middle class housewife in american beauty to a glamorous broadway starlet with wads of affairs by the side in being julie, she definitely showcases some serious acting ability whereas swank is apt in those tenacious young girls overcoming all odds roles like both in boys don't cry and million dollar baby. there's so many reasons to give the oscar to benning yet it wasn't. losing out twice is bad enuff, losing out twice to the same person, god knows how it feels.

why the sympathy with benning then? one reason, she is hot. haha :P

zhang ziyi's hairdo was crap to me. she looked like someone who took a trip into the present from the 60's with tt 'do. to think that botak david gan still quite satisfied with his handiwork. would you even trust a botak to cut/style your hair? a outrageously expensive cut/style at that??? the world works in strange ways.

moving on from the oscars, we come to this hot hot hot topic/scandal in the chinese entertainment scene. the 'jay-jolin-whoever she may be' scandal. actually, whoever she may be is a pretty young lass named peggy hou. supposedly some sweetie pie host. now, boys and girls, dun miss the point here, scandals like these are aplenty in the entertainment industry, be it the western one, the chinese one or even the african and bollywood one. the point here would be the rumors that are inevitably generated by mainly jay's and jolin's legion of fans. boycotting his songs, not sharing the same stage as him, not writing songs for her, slanging him off etc etc. all these have the common vicious intent, that is to create a hostile enviroment for one and all. this is obviously bad for everyone involved since everyone is so interconnected in the industry, there will be loads of awkward silences and uneasy truces whenever the 3 of them and the people connected to them appear in functions or concerts together. but for us common people unable to taste the stratosphere that those people are in, it makes for fun and intriguing entertainment. More! more! more!!

YAHOO! is 10 years old. meaning, been using it for at least 9 years now. this is definitely brand loyalty. 9 years for free! thats how you breed brand loyalty! HA!